my new chapter

either the hardest, or the happiest part of a person's life is CHANGE.
i sleep, i wake up, and i do as much as i can.
then before i know it,i'm back to my bed again, another night to get some rest.
I've learned to live the day to do much and avoid the pain that's trickling in my head.
ever since i went away to take this new world,to receive my new chapter, i struggle in this way.
each time that sick strange darkness comes creeping on unexpectedly,
i stop and go out to take a deep breath of good fresh air to ease the tightening of my chest.
the beauty that i see in the wonderful sight of nature somehow soothes me.
but, i still cant find meaning,i can find the answers to what is happening.
i know everything has a purpose.i don't doubt that. i know that God has everything in store for me. whatever happens, His will in my life will be done.
but it's just that the sadness wont go away..:(
and sometimes, most of the time, it's unbearable.
perhaps time can heal the pain.
perhaps in time, i would learn to finally take it and not feel the hurt anymore.
all i have to do is to move. i have to move along to make it through.
that's the wonder of life.
it's beautiful that nothing could ever compare to it.
you feel sadness, you feel pain, you get happy, you get complete,
you gain something, you find one thing, you lose some,
you rise, you fall. but in the end, EVERYTHING will turn out just the way it should be.
and in the end, you'll realize, you have learned everything you know through what you have surpassed in your life.
and you'll know, God wouldn't give you that burden if He doesn't know that you can carry it.
your burden shows how much He really trusts you.
now isn't that the most beautiful wonder we can ever have?