is it evEn woNdeRfuL?

i once wondered why instead of laughing, babies cry; and why cold bodies in coffins look more peaceful than some people who are alive..
is it because these babies know that in their mother's womb, they can stay away from the pain that this world can bring? and are these bodies thankful that they can finally rest from all the hurts that they have taken?
isn't it such a wonder.

i even marveled how one's overpowering pride could defeat love's sacrifices..
why do people at times seem to make all my efforts useless?
why do we never understand what we've got till it's gone?
why do we neglect things that we should have been treasuring the most..

we worry too much on getting away from the rain that we don't realize how grateful we must have been for the quiet tree which gave us care..

i wonder why sometimes we become too dumb to show how grateful we are having the person we love the most beside us..
some even become too numb to make us feel our love for them is worth it..
it kills me to realize that we neglect people we love and need because we know that no matter what we do, they would always stay..





i have so much, too much love to give, will anyone realize our lives' worth?

sometimes, i sufFeR

it' funny everytime a little kid runs to me with teary eyes and a dirty cheek, asking for comfort just because of an unfair play with friends. i watch the small being as i hug her, sobbing as if she mourns for a broken soul. realizing the irony, i sadly smiled..
sometimes i wish i could just be like this kid, just worrying about fights with playmates and keep crying the whole day just for a bruised knee. these are nothing compared to the sadness i can feel right now.
maybe life is just like this. perhaps loneliness is a part of living..
pain is a flavor and there are instances that i have to taste it in order to learn.
maybe i just have to cry when i feel like it, and take the sad hurts when its given to me. we only get to live once so take all the chances. forgive instantly. believe every promise like a kid. love till you hurt and till your pride consumes.
time is fast and it can't be repeated. though you might appear sometimes stupid, what's important is you took the risk that makes up loving.
in the end, you can be proud that you gave your best to make your life worth it.

-Miriam Ong-Ante